Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Blogger Hiatus

It has been quite a while since my last post. Well there are a few reasons:

1. Holiday weekend. My brother and his family came down for the holiday weekend. It was SO wonderful to get to spend nearly everyday with them. I really miss them a lot, so it was great I didn't have any other plans besides hanging with them. Luckily I get to see them again this weekend too! It was exciting that Inara said her first word while they were here! A while ago she started waving hi to people, and now she actually says "Hi" with her wave! It is so cute and so sweet. She will wave and say hi to strangers, herself in the mirror, but the best is when she does it to me when I come home from work!

2.Sickness- I have been sick 2 times since my last post, which is  a lot considering Justin and I figured out I haven't been sick since 2003. 1st I had a cold, then this past weekend I think Justin and I either had some sort of stomach bug or we both got food poisoning. BLERG! :( Either way I am SOOOO thankful that neither time Inara got sick. (wait...can you use "either" and "neither" in the same sentance? Oh well) She must have gotten a rock star immune system from me because poor Justin gets sick a few times a year.

I recently started attending a ladies bible study at my church. It has been SO fruitful and amazing. I have never done one at my church, so I had no idea what to expect. I have been in other "bible studies", but rarely we ever actually studied the bible. But I actually feel like I am digging into God's word...and learning SO much. I am praying more and since I am in His word I have greater joy! How wonderful is that?!

Hebrews 4:12-For the word of God is living and active. 
Sharper than any double-edged sword, 
it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow;
it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
This verse has been so true during my time of study. I have read the same verses 2 or 3 days in a row and learned something new each time. I am thankful God has given us His Word to help us. It is NOT just a book of rules...it really IS alive and I am learning that more and more. I can feel the Holy Spirit teaching me, convicting me, helping me. 

I feel like I have been learning a lot about God through being Inara's Mom. Yesterday I was working and saw a mother push down her child and say "Get the F&*% over their". I was SOOO heart broken. I immediately wanted to adopt all the little babies and kiddos in the area with out loving parents. Not that I am the best parent at all. I know I'll make mistakes, but I pray I'll never loose my temper that bad. It got me thinking though...

Earlier in the morning I woke Inara up and we just sat in the rocking chair in her room for a few minutes. I just held her and and said "Wow, there is no way anyone loves you more than I do. But God does. He loves you WAY more than I do".  Then I thought...wow that is a lot of love. and He loves me that much too! Holy smokes....he really loves me! I seriously love that girl so much...just sitting here writing it, I may or may not be tearing up :) Anyway, I honestly think I love her so much, because I love Christ so much...that's the only way. If Inara was my life's focus, I know I would be a dreadful person to be around. I love her, but lets face it...she can't meet ANY of my needs. She can't take care of me when I am sick, comfort me when I am sad, love me unconditionally, or really anything else. She just plays....which is great that is what she is suppose to do right now. I know she will break my heart into a million little pieces as she gets older, but since my HOPE is in Christ and not her...maybe it won't hurt quite as bad. :) If my life was about her...I COULDN'T love her. When she is poopy, and whiny, and awful to be around...I would be mad at her, annoyed, and an awful wifey too. But that is the great thing about Christ. He knows that. That is why he says love HIM first with my whole heart, soul, body, and strength. ONLY then can I love others with a perfect love. Not saying I am perfect...because I am FAR from it. But I can love others with His perfect love as I learn to love him 1st. Sorry if that was hard to follow...but that's me! 

1 comment:

  1. 1. I love that you said "blerg"

    2. I have been thinking about those same things with loving Norah...I think that one thing I have seen through being a mom is sin that I could not see before!

    3. We would love to have dinner sometime

    4. I need to tell you about these great plane tickets we found to Orlando for a killer price, I thought maybe you and Justin could be interested in sometime

    5. I should have sent you an email. haha!


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